the poet
Nottingham-based poet and novelist Caroline Stancer is a counsellor and trainer for the NHS and other organisations. She has a Creative Writing MA from Nottingham Trent University, and has twice been longlisted for the UK's National Poetry Competition. Caroline was also longlisted and shortlisted for Nine Arches Press' Primers competition, and commended in the Verve Festival Poetry Competition. She co-runs the Dandelions Poetry events and podcast, and her poetry can be found in Like Flyering for the Revolution: The VERVE Anthology of Protest Poems as well as in Anthropocene. Caroline is a PhD candidate at Manchester Metropolitan University, and her debut pamphlet is Full Body Reclaim.
the poems
Daffodil
Hell yeah! My mouth is open
to eat all the eddies in the air I am hungry
and loud
Yellow! Yellow! I shout
along with the cacophony of life like when you do the breaststroke
in the sea and sink into each scooping dip
a world of water hits your chest
when the next wave rises it covers your head
and your face is all salt all salt everywhere.
Do you think it’s easy being this gorgeous?
Being stretched to the endless limits of yellow
paper thin and barely here I am almost all water
and yet look how generous I am
with all I haven’t got
Do you remember when you gave birth
and you felt blown open wide enough to let the world in?
I live like that wide as an estuary
at high tide
Look at me look at me
I am a herald for the Earth’s orbit
and for Yes!
one impossible moment in an ordinary grass verge
Bluebell
Our smooth blue throats
hang down hungry for the earth
in its woody decomposition we breathe it in
and breathe it in that rich rotting history
some of us are uplifted to drink the air
and its million currents
when we gulp together we swallow you down
into coolest spring like when you wait at the top of the tunnel slide
in the water park then swing yourself down
into the channel of water whoosh and dimmed light
and then all your breath is taken as you submerge
there is nothing else there is nothing else
only spring
our blue soothes
even the parts of you that cannot be soothed
the tangled conflict the unbearable loss
like an efficient nurse with ice cubes flannel and drugs
who slides you down the dark flume of night
our frilled edges like the careful curls
at the edge of your grandmother’s face
our buds bunched arguments ready to burst
the white lumps of our planted hearts
shoving forth fountains of green and moon
in slow motion insupportable cascades
Rose
You worry about dropping things so much has been spilled already
but I am careless balanced
on a stem my petals blowsy overblown
I lose a few and lose a few
my filmy pieces of bliss discarded
a silk wrap for your fingertip a piece of dreaming sky
you want to know what kind of enigma I am—
I only know that I am one that is translucent
and one that is yellow and
one that is red
I have dewy edges still wet when in shadow
damp even after hours in sunlight
and hinges where petals fold down
from the white of my fleshy centre
you ask
what can that flesh be made of?
… tiny ear bones all crushed and softened
the heart of hearing
or a flood of miniscule shells patterns erased by the sea
the still centres of constant motion
And how can petals emerge from this?
… I let my colour bloom like blood
You ask more questions—
How does each petal know where it lives?
How does every part of you know where it lives?
I answer—
… all the creatures of the Earth
know where they live remember
here is your hair and here is each limb
sometimes outside of every miracle
and sometimes held within
Publishing credits
All poems: Otherwise Engaged (Vol. 10, Winter 2022)
Special thanks to Five Leaves Publications for publishing
these poems as part of Full Body Reclaim
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